Admission of Guilt-- I went there. Yes I did.
Mentally I went to the thought of having a final run. Running with my step dad this weekend, I thought-- 'what if this is our last run together until after I have the baby?'
And by that thought, I do not mean because the baby comes, or because I am too slow for him, but because I just decide its not worth it to continue running.
I felt ashamed I thought it.
But the thought lingered a little and then dissipated when I slept ok the night after and woke up feeling fine! Today I did my bootcamp dvd instead of a run... but I still plan to keep running. We're almost to 34 weeks. Only 6 more weeks of running, I tell myself. I have no good reason yet to stop running other than the after effects I have felt for months now. My actual runs are still decent in length and a bit slower to accomodate, but otherwise they feel no different.
Mind over matter.
You WILL feel better for this once the little guy or gal gets here.